Observations of a Yound Old Man

Me. I want a few things in my life before I pass on. At a young age my only goal was to play college basketball. Once that idea vanished, I opened up to the real world. My views on life and relation changed. I have been in a total of 2 relationships (one lasting 5 ½ years). I have to this point been observing every woman I come encounter with. I have came to the conclusion a few things. Being my age, 24 almost 25, I am a man with different moral and value of responsibilities than the average 24 year old male. I never feel I am “better” than the next man. I just don’t fit in any 24 year olds “category.” One type of young man is the “partier”, clubbing, different women, drinking probably don’t have a good job. Next one is the “graduate” trying to find himself, moved back to his hometown, single but on his way to finding a good career. The other is a bum, just don’t do nothing, smokes all day, no ambition, asking for gas money still living with parent(s). In California, we have one more class. The “entertainer” this could be anyone from rapper, dancer, actor blah blah. Then there is ME. I party, only sometimes and only on the weekend. I went to school, only for a few months. Im never a bum, don’t want to be an entertainer. I just work and try to find ways to make more money for my future. I fit the “old man” category if there one. In my opinion, easy to please, you have to clean up, cook, sex, part time job (to help me out) and I got everything else I will clean to I like to be a clean dude. To my most recent ended relationship, I realize what a headache I have been and Im sorry for the confusion I have put on you because of my confusion.

You. You women see me as a young and old man. I like the idea of coming home to a clean house and a cooked meal. I will bust my ass everyday for that reason. The problem is you and me. I feel like I am 35 years young. Im don’t think on the same level as any other guy my age. Most compliments I receive from women my age or younger are that I am attractive. Most compliments I receive from women that are 28 or older are that I am special and a good guy. So I take all that in. Women my age fit the same categories as men my age. So you young women see me and are like, “he’s cute, he got a job, but he want a wife and Im not ready.” I don’t want a wife right now. I just don’t want to waste our time. Im not about to deal with nobody unless I feel you are good enough to start a family with. Yall younger women see me, and still have things to deal with internally to progress to be a woman. Older women see me and want me for me right now! But most older women have kids already. Sorry, but I want to start a family not be a part of yours. My goal in life is too grow old and to see my great grandchildren. In the meantime, I will provide for my family that’s what I do.

So my question is what do I sacrifice? Stay with the younger one and wait? Get with a older one that might have a kid or 2? Wait until I find the woman that can accept me and wants the same thing out of life right now? Where is the woman that is like me? Until then Im going be by my lonely, don’t take it personally ladies. Let me do me because you cant do me. I want to be good man, husband, father, what do you want?