Heaven Sent

I want to explain, instead a smile remains,
Constantly contemplating reasons why
I wanna make you smile enough to make you cry
When trying my mind slows
Is this love? No
But I really don’t know
At this pace we determined its right
Blessing but not disguised
Changed my life, dark to light
Is she it? Maybe
Until then she’s my baby
We go together like pork chops and gravy
Can always make you smile
You return the favor
I Am Sure Simply because
She’s my Angel.
Yes.

Some Things I wrote, nothing special

I want to Close my eyes, feel my heart, the spark, hear silence, feel the time that goes by, open my eyes just to hear you smile.


I want to explain, instead a smile remains, constantly contemplating reasons why, I wanna make you smile enough to make you cry.

Yesterday I Wasnt, Today Show Me

Wishing someone could understand me the way you thought did
The way you loved, the way we lived
Hurting realizations of my mind
Plaguing my rest, sleeping eventually lands with time
Courageous actions on my behalf
You thought one thing I knew another
Half full hour glass
Wouldn’t allow you to smother
Recalling statements and behavior
You should of noticed my intent
I thought you were my savior
Freeing me from slavery, allowing compensation for my labor
Wanting to show you all, without being myself
I feel more pain and disgust today, you thought it was heartfelt
Ball on chain, but I kept the key
Did not allow you to see the receipt
Wishing I should’ve shown you
The prisoner in me was you, we could’ve been at peace
The prisoner in you was love, that thought could not be less true
An underlying dormant fate was predetermined
Your were the victim of my obstacle
The fact was it was not all a fable
My confusion was only apparent when the horse left the stable
True love a statement that is not earned

Instead a gift
In love is what I have left to learn.

3:37 AM

Lives lost in passion
Reminiscent of entrapment
Enemies bled while u slave the masses
Mind colluded in deepness
Seeking for forgiveness
But won't allow your enemy to see such weakness
They were here and you found peace
Not peace of mind; but no sight or sound
Def and blind
Can't remember past 10
Its a blessing to stop at 9
Constantly thinking how u made it this far
With such a frail mind
Losses combined with wins
Thoughts of the slain seep deep within
Time for a change; a rule to bend
Responsibilities gained and some lost
Found honor in paying cost
Permanent changes to all
Lives connected by the actions of your passions
Speak clearly
Don’t run rancid
Be mundane
Not everyone’s loss is another gain
Not every animal can be tamed
Learn to seek the ability to train
Fly without wings
Precipitate without rain
Goals, love, honor.
The lack of pain.