Yesterday I Wasnt, Today Show Me

Wishing someone could understand me the way you thought did
The way you loved, the way we lived
Hurting realizations of my mind
Plaguing my rest, sleeping eventually lands with time
Courageous actions on my behalf
You thought one thing I knew another
Half full hour glass
Wouldn’t allow you to smother
Recalling statements and behavior
You should of noticed my intent
I thought you were my savior
Freeing me from slavery, allowing compensation for my labor
Wanting to show you all, without being myself
I feel more pain and disgust today, you thought it was heartfelt
Ball on chain, but I kept the key
Did not allow you to see the receipt
Wishing I should’ve shown you
The prisoner in me was you, we could’ve been at peace
The prisoner in you was love, that thought could not be less true
An underlying dormant fate was predetermined
Your were the victim of my obstacle
The fact was it was not all a fable
My confusion was only apparent when the horse left the stable
True love a statement that is not earned

Instead a gift
In love is what I have left to learn.